Dear Patience,
The first thing you need to know is that I had been praying for days, I prayed that someday I would have the chance to talk to you again in a good way. And today He answers my prayer. I am so relieved.
I’m so sorry I didn’t tell you that I was close to Gray. It happened just like that. At first, I did think that he was your boyfriend, but then he told me that your relationship didn’t work that way. He told me it was true that you both were close, but you weren’t in a relationship. And somehow we get along really well, me and Gray, we went out a litttle often and found ourselves comfortables to each other.
I told him a few times, that he must make the relationship clear, either with you or with me. But we’re grown-ups anyway, I don’t want to oreder him around, he should have been able to make decisions, therefore I compeletely trust him to make one. It’s all up to him.
And about the statuses and stuffs, I did feel very upset about them. I felt like you were judging things without knowing the real truth. But silly me, of course, I also didn’t provide you one, instead of informing you, I was keeping it myself. The truth, I mean, and a little bit of heartache.
But don’t worry about heartache, Bon-bon (I still can call you that, can’t I?) because by the time I read your e-mail, they are all gone. I’m the one to say sorry. I don’t have any clue that you were that hurt and he became such a different person in front of you, I really don’t know that the conditions between you both has turned really bad. I thought, silence was the best way to keep people I love from being hurt. I really don’t want to hurt anybody. And it is so pity that my decision to silent actually only comforting myself, and instead of keeping anybody from being hurt, it hurts you.
Let me say this to you, as a friend and also as a woman, maybe you should just consider everything more for love is meant to make you happy. Find the man who can make you happy, bon-bon, I don’t want to cause you anymore tears. Perhaps everything is so difficult to bear, but you would have me, and also the other girls (we made such a cute party in the French class back then, remember?), this is the bond of the girls that will not be understood by any men. We have this girl power, don’t we? So stand still and be fearless, because I know you can, and everytime you feel like helpless about guys, I will make you sure to feel that you’re not alone.
I don’t write this e-mail to make me considered right, or becoming Saint-like. I don’t wanna be calles the mature one or whatever. I just can’t become any happier than knowing that you forgive me (and surely I forgive you too) and things are getting much better than before.
And thankyou for sending me the e-mail, it feels like one refreshing morning breeze. I feel like we can start all over again from now on, as good friends, can we?
Sincerely,
Felize
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