Sorry for the late reply, I left offline messages before, but I think it’s better to write you a little. And so like I’ve told you, I have a little trouble to go online for a few days because my parents are here on a visit. But they will go home tomorrow, then we can have a few chats, either on the messenger or on the phone.
Anyway, these few days I’ve been thinking –it’s a good thing my parents are here, I didn’t have to make up excuses to have a little time to think. You did leave a very big scar, and perhaps a few traumas. But I forgive you, since a long time ago. And I can’t hate you, at all.
After we broke up, actually I want to settle things –you see that you blamed me for something I didn’t do- but I don’t know how. So when Marine told me that she sent all the unsent e-mails I had wrote, I thought it would be the best way. I didn’t want to reach you in order to make things clear but only ends up fighting, since you didn’t believe me.
And so I took time for myself. I had a few girls’ day out, went to the beauty clinique and did this and that, had a spa, and other girl stuffs. I was succeed calming myself down and I was sure enough that I had accepted everything in sincerity. You know, everything is easier when you have a cold head –and newly bought stuffs. I met a few guys, but not that ‘met’, only intros and some light conversation. I didn’t find them interesting, at all –even the facts that some of them might be a lot more gentle than you. I haven’t gotten over you.
I don’t know how to express this, but I’m so relieved that you really did clear your mind –at least, I don’t have to settle those things with argues. It’s not that I’m happy for your relationship failure –well maybe, a bit- I’m sorry for that. But I can assure you, it’s a karma. Can I laugh? Well, I have.
It’s sooo good to know that the choice to hold on isn’t wasted. It’s like after travel a long cold and dark tunnel, I finally find it’s end, the bright light. And my passion to fall in love again will not be limited as a daydream anymore. So that you have realized your faults and apologize, and since I still foolishly in love with you, so yeah..let’s make up.
Perhaps the past two and a half months was a huge test for us. If it’s me, I have learnt a lot of patience, how pushing my limit, sincerity, forgiveness, trust, love, and pain. And also, I think I can tell when you’re feeling mad or unsatisfied or anything, seriously, I can read them now, plus I know how to handle them. I hope you too, learnt something –at least learn not to get attracted to anybody when you already have a girl, lol.
I hope with this newly recovered relationship, we will make it a lot better. There’s a saying that people who know how it feel to be hungry are the most thankful of food, people who know how it feel to be poor are the most grateful of wealth, and people who know how it feel to be lost are the most faithful to companions –the last is probably us!
Take care, and hear from you soon.
With a real love –Patience.
PS. You told me on the last lines of your e-mail that you aren’t so good with sweet word. Yeah right, it’s kinda in your skin, dude. Perhaps it’s not sweet-poem-words, but I’ll tell you, your convincing temptation is the sweetness girls can never get over with. So watch out with them, seriously. Because once again you ‘unintettionally’ say it to other-other gils, I have no doubt to cut your throat.
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